"I beg your pardon... I never promised you a rose garden..."- I wonder if God sings this? He should- I know I would if I were him and humans felt they deserved a pity party when the rough days surface...
In a nutshell... Step one to the return to normal every day life... coming off the steroids, which anyone who has ever been on high doses knows what this does to your emotions... yuk! Been on a steady dose since 6/3 and the weaning off- oh, so fun. You never know if I want to cry on your shoulder or punch you in the face! It's nothing personal- really! I know when I am acting unbearable- luckily my close friends and my family know the deal- and seem to handle me oh so appropriately... to that ever so special person that just lets me ramble on and on... like today when I needed to- you are always there right on time. Thank you!
Even on days like these, when I feel down and really unsure of what tomorrow will hold, I find myself in awe of other's strength. Just today at the store, I watched a man with arm braces and struggling to walk proudly work his way through the store, shopping for himself even when it is obviously difficult, and as others approached to ask if he needed help, I found myself thinking, "no! Don't! he WANTS to do this on his own!" I can tell. I know when someone sick or hurting wants help and when they want to do it just BECAUSE THEY CAN. He was the latter of these 2. I knew it. Others didn't. Instead I gave him a sincere smile and asked about the weather, as I would anyone else who was in line with me. His returned smile told me all he didn't say- "thanks for treating me like everyone else."
He inspired me tonight. He displayed strength. LIVE INSPIRED. Yes- it is truly in line with the legacy I have been working on for a month or so. Just when I was letting my energies go toward the negative, God through someone my way to get my attention. It worked. Back o track, though I know it isn't the easy path...
Don't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do.
"you can turn off the sun, but I'm still gonna shine..."
In a nutshell... Step one to the return to normal every day life... coming off the steroids, which anyone who has ever been on high doses knows what this does to your emotions... yuk! Been on a steady dose since 6/3 and the weaning off- oh, so fun. You never know if I want to cry on your shoulder or punch you in the face! It's nothing personal- really! I know when I am acting unbearable- luckily my close friends and my family know the deal- and seem to handle me oh so appropriately... to that ever so special person that just lets me ramble on and on... like today when I needed to- you are always there right on time. Thank you!
Even on days like these, when I feel down and really unsure of what tomorrow will hold, I find myself in awe of other's strength. Just today at the store, I watched a man with arm braces and struggling to walk proudly work his way through the store, shopping for himself even when it is obviously difficult, and as others approached to ask if he needed help, I found myself thinking, "no! Don't! he WANTS to do this on his own!" I can tell. I know when someone sick or hurting wants help and when they want to do it just BECAUSE THEY CAN. He was the latter of these 2. I knew it. Others didn't. Instead I gave him a sincere smile and asked about the weather, as I would anyone else who was in line with me. His returned smile told me all he didn't say- "thanks for treating me like everyone else."
He inspired me tonight. He displayed strength. LIVE INSPIRED. Yes- it is truly in line with the legacy I have been working on for a month or so. Just when I was letting my energies go toward the negative, God through someone my way to get my attention. It worked. Back o track, though I know it isn't the easy path...
Don't let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do.
"you can turn off the sun, but I'm still gonna shine..."
did u take that picture ???? AWESOME!!!
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